I feel blue

**the meaning is sad ok

today afternoon

when i was going back home inside the car

my brother,LUCAS

suddenly called me on phone

damn

i miss him so much

when i heard his voice

i just cannot control my emotion

i felt so bad,felt so sad

he said

why u never come here to accompany me & sleep with me at the night

i..

i couldn't breathe a word

because he was touched me

tears screaming down my face

i was CRYING

since i want to cover it by not making any sound

just silent for a while until i can open my mouth and speak

but he said

'what happen to u jie.?why are u crying?'

GOD..

how could he detect it?

he's just a 4-year-old kid

emotion burns inside me

let me more want to cry

it was killing me

LUCAS

jie2 promise u will bring u out

bring you to everywhere u wanted to go

will go to your place to accompany u everyday

will buy u many toys,clothes & whatever things that u should own

even move to live with you

i promise

i am not fair for you

everything is seemed very unfair to you

i will give u all what you should have ok my darling

jie2 love you so much..

passage above i hv wanted to write out on my blog for a long time

but i just don't want to be everyone's sympathy

cause i will burst into tears if u'r asking bout this

so pls

don't ever mention a word

i'll cry!!!

thx

good luck to me & also LUCAS