Complicated

There is a huge changed in my life in 2011
until now --May ,I still can't get used to "oh it's 2011 right now"
I still live in 2010,seriously I don't wish to welcome 2011
Things become worst in this 2011
Seems like a hardship for me
every details of life of mine is going wrong
the studies , the family , the finance , the boyfriend


It's just .... I have no word for it ..COMPLICATED
Many obstacles appear in front of my way right now
And yet I still feel proud of myself because I get to know these all feeling
and did not get mad like others, thanks God <3

All I want is
sometimes, when I say "I'm okay"
then someone look me in the eyes,hug me tight and say
" I know you're not "

-------Would that you honey ? I need your cares right now dear =(

纯粹

今夜的我，纯粹为了更新而更新
想把4月份的事情统统记载下来
但是回忆却很模糊

只记得，4月份是很忙的一个月
我拼命做parttime，拼命找$
为了就是清债，背着这些债，日子过得就是那么不安心
因此忽略了很多事，最重要的是学业
完全100%的忽略掉了
真的觉得成绩差的自己好丑陋，好丢脸
但是我还真的是有心无力，意志力不够坚强
被很多压力逼得脑袋没清静
什么也追不上

另外
也忽略了我的亲人
我的阿嫲还有弟弟lucas
我真的不想的，身不由己
对不起，我爱你们
给我多一点点的时间来解决该做的事


有时间很气自己，做事太冲动
时常都惹事
但却又好胜心强兼爱面子，不想让大家知道我失败了
所以都收在心里的最深处，不跟大家分享
甚至男朋友也不愿分享
到最后，还是过不了自己那关 T.T
我讨厌我自己

“生气的时候，闭着眼睛数到三”

我都是用这句话来安慰自己的，希望对你们也有帮助
遇到不开心的事时不要气馁，相信霉运不会跟着你一辈子


不过无论如何
我觉得兔年不是我的趋势年
反而是霉事接二连三，一波未平一波又起呀！
结论，兔年的愿望是__龙年赶快到来，为我的霉运雪耻！