爱他，放弃他

原来

梁山伯与祝英台的爱情还是存在的

我们的第474天

又再一次面临问题

老天是否还考验不够

还是之前的考验不够艰难

我这个人

天生就为爱而死

是天注定的吗

对他

我真的好爱好爱

我认定

他就是我的白马王子

是我太天真了吗？

还是太幼稚了？

爱他，就得离开他

要是不分开

我只会害了他

爱他

我错了吗

真的错了吗

我羡慕死别人

羡慕死他们

即使让我要风得风，要雨得雨

那又怎么样

缺少爱的心

再多的物质享受

还是那么的空虚

如果

2012真的是世界末日

我想我是哭死的吧

因为

我不甘心

幸福的美梦

还来不及与最爱的人完成

就得向世界说byebye

就得与爱的人永远的分开

没有来世

老天爷啊

你就真的那么狠心

如果心脏能够在这一秒种

跟最爱的他

一起永永远远的停止

那么

我愿意

tired.♥

damn tired today

but i'm full of happiness.♥

finally i can hug my honey so tightly

it's enough than everything

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Miss Jia YI

a very sweet 18

i wish i can faster past my 18

wish you all the best in your exam & also your upcoming new life

hope you will always remember me^^

3 months of patience

finally i broke it

hu~

what a release.♥

SPM-ing

现在已经是学校假期了

假期生活都计划好了吧

我并不羡慕你们的假期

毕竟在校的日子对我来说

已经完完全全的结束了

超舍不得的

从来就不喜欢假期的我

从今以后就是放大假了

难耐

上学

从以前到现在

都是让我很期待的一件事

中五生涯

就这样过了

落寞

以后

理所当然每天见面的朋友都很难再聚一起了

这样你们会觉得很开心吗

原谅我突然的感性

今天上来报告战势的

6科就这样过了

add math paper2 有够难的

做得我汗流浃背，腰酸背痛

担心啊

A会不会就这样泡汤了

‘我一定行的’

缺乏信心呐

无论如何

希望目标能达成

做不到99%好也要做到98%好××因为没有人是100%嘛

但愿我与honey

能够坚强的走过将来的风风雨雨

我们的爱情

就像是天灾

突然的袭击

突然的分离

突然的伤害

不管怎样

两颗心还是紧紧相依

我爱你

到2012

Envied.♥

i'm very envied

Li May,Jia Yi,Chuan Jun,Jia Hin & so on

Li May

who has a very happiness family

has a very loving & caring mother

has very good relationship with her siblings

all this i'll never own:(

Jia Yi

who has a open-minded & also caring mother

and also her caring sister

they live so peaceful

and also her boyfriend

she's family is allowed their relationship

they can date whenever they like

do whatever they want without any interruption,any obstacle

and her bf is so love her & has a car & able to give what her wants

ME,i never owned this before even once!

my life always tough

Chuan Jun

who falls in love damn much now

she's family is also allowed the relationship

and even considered like one family

she can always go to his house

he can also always go to her house

eat together with the family

chat with the family

doing any activities of family

they are just like a family even they are still couple

how envied i am to their great relationship & open-minded family

Jia Hin

who has a really2 great feeling with the family although her father has passed away

the mother is so caring & loving

and the siblings are live together happily

unlike mine

i brother akai

he will not help me if i have any trouble

and he will easily betray me

then i'll go through a very suffer experience

I hate my life although i can easily get what i want

things cannot make me happy

i'm willing to survive from hand to mouth to live with a happiness family

i hate why i was born in family like this

the heart is lack of love

that's why i love my honey so much

i count him as a very important people in my life

no one was exactly love & care me apparently except my honey

My father

he is married & I considered that he has a new family

although he ask me to call his wife as 'MOTHER'

but it doesn't really feel like a family when i call her like that

that's your family but not mines

i don't ever know what is the meaning of "family"since that day you & mother came to divorce

and i was only 3 years old that time

is that life unfair for me?

(hmm,i don't think so,bcoz i still have my parents alive)

My brother*the second one

he is very selfish

cares bout himself only

everyday think of dancing n enjoying his life

he spent money like water

when i was in trouble

need to spare some money from him

he will say he has spent all the money

and he is an abnormal

don't know wtf family i have

My mother

since i was young

she already has her own life

so i am really independent to mother's love

i am very envied all my friends

envied how their mother takes care them

sometimes i was angry

why i don't have all these even i have my mother alive

WHY

THAT IS TOTALLY WHY

i love honey so much

i have found no love in this family

but i found a lot of love in honey

honey

thank you so much

for appear in my life

for coloring my life

you make me feel happy

you let me know how is the feeling of being care & love by somebody

and you love me with all your heart

i swear

i will never let you go

you owned by me

forever & ever

etc.♥

原本以为解决的事

就是发生了

为什么那么fuck

贵人变仇人ok

第一，撞到你的车是我的错×我道歉了

第二，是你自己说没关系，也没有要求赔偿，你说是缘分（袁粪就有！）

第三，你的老婆真XX，要赔偿就赔给你啊，我又没赖账

第四，赔给你了还要捅我一刀××又不承认

第五，成功升级为仇人,恭喜你啊××fuck

搞得我SPM没心考

你是害人精

我是倒霉鬼！

♥SPM♥

now have already gone through 3 papers

how a release!

after BM & BI papers

that was really a load off my mind

the subject so on is stress-less**maybe la

at least i have gone through the most important subjects

SPM season is really not my days

many problems keep falling on me

while i'm the candidate who facing the most important exam in the life

how can god treat me like this

hardships all fall on this critical time

the BAHASA MELAYU

i did it as usual at paper 2

and i was satisfied with my paper 1-KARANGAN

i think it was the best i can do

hope i can get an A

the BAHASA INGGERIS

pretty easy subject to me*and others

because Malaysia's BI paper was so simple and easy

especially the paper 2

hope u all can get A+

the SEJARAH

this is the first and also last i memorize it by hard**concentrate

ofcuz i could not manage to cover all

but at least i can answer 3 question in full & fast

this was the first attempt of mine

credit is enough for me

at least my result will not be 'cacat'

7 more subjects to go through

i must work hard to make A's

wish i can manage my emotion

and will not be affected by the problems that recently i have encountered

GOD ar..

pls bless me la

no one else can help me only YOU

i hope nothing will happen on me & honey after SPM

i wish our relationship can last forever & everyone accept us!

god bless god bless!!!

GOD

hear for my pray

and make it comes true

fulfill my little demand

tension is biting inside me

BLESS me

惊魂之撞车记

昨晚

喝完茶后

车故障

天啊

这是怎么回事

当时情况很紧张

我必须及时离开那里

有非常重要的事

什么事我只好SKIP

××因为是很私人的事

于是有贵人出现

终于启动了引擎

我快道谢

连忙跳上车准备飞啊

怎知后退时撞到东西

还以为是椅子之类的

就不多管了

我得飞快离开

我用猛速

到达目的地去载我弟

突然

贵人出现在车窗外

惊喜

还以为他也来这里找人

怎知

我撞到的“东西”

竟然就是他的车

我的天

好心没好报

我连忙道歉

我真的不是故意的

当时我因某件事快疯了

撞到舍也不理了

我不停的道歉

能做的就是赔偿

但是他说

没关系

我自己搞定就行了

也许这也是一种缘分

谢天谢地

少了件棘手的事

回到家

还是为了某件事而忐忑不安

第二天起身（就是今天啦）

某件事似乎解决了

于是安心的STUDY去

又怎知

昨天的贵人又找上来了

说是老婆大人放不过这缘分

昏

晴天霹雳

连忙赶到现场

到了

贵人的态度不一样了

说的话也不一样了

或许是老婆的关系

说什么因为看我昨天赶时间

所以先不要求赔偿

什么？

昨天说的那个缘分呢？

我没钱啊

某件事让我不能向家里要钱

悲哀

原本就已经解决了的事

我不想它在重现呀

算了

反正是我错在先

这次真的是破财消积

我是穷人

这次惊魂记

让我变得恐惧

不敢驾车了

驾照也还不满一个月

怎么就要发生这种事

天啊

真衰

不管怎么样

honey安全没事就好

我爱你

I feel blue

**the meaning is sad ok

today afternoon

when i was going back home inside the car

my brother,LUCAS

suddenly called me on phone

damn

i miss him so much

when i heard his voice

i just cannot control my emotion

i felt so bad,felt so sad

he said

why u never come here to accompany me & sleep with me at the night

i..

i couldn't breathe a word

because he was touched me

tears screaming down my face

i was CRYING

since i want to cover it by not making any sound

just silent for a while until i can open my mouth and speak

but he said

'what happen to u jie.?why are u crying?'

GOD..

how could he detect it?

he's just a 4-year-old kid

emotion burns inside me

let me more want to cry

it was killing me

LUCAS

jie2 promise u will bring u out

bring you to everywhere u wanted to go

will go to your place to accompany u everyday

will buy u many toys,clothes & whatever things that u should own

even move to live with you

i promise

i am not fair for you

everything is seemed very unfair to you

i will give u all what you should have ok my darling

jie2 love you so much..

passage above i hv wanted to write out on my blog for a long time

but i just don't want to be everyone's sympathy

cause i will burst into tears if u'r asking bout this

so pls

don't ever mention a word

i'll cry!!!

thx

good luck to me & also LUCAS

finally i did something

oh good

finally i did something for the SPM

keep on studying

i'm struggling for the SPM result

it's real that house is not a good surrounding for study

at home

there are so many things keep disturbing our mind

we have television,internet,bed etc

and we may also have pesky brother & sister

it's really annoying

and of course we should also want to be concentrated enough

that's why i don't like study with the person

who are not serious enough & like to make noise

so don't say that i'm selfish

i'll never share anythings with u if u don't have the attitude

i really don't like people like that

it's different that if you are already clever & smart enough

then i'll have no comments about it

i'll never selfish about knowledge

when i become selfish

the reason is all about yourself

i would like to see every of my friends get flying colors

so it's time to change your attitude

we left not much time

10 days

work hard for your future!!!

i'll always appreciate our friendship

love you guys

you guys bring a color of the rainbow to my life

and the others 6 colors is brought by my honeyy.(haha)

i asses honey more than you guys

don't blame me

cause i love him so much^^

MOOD:fever SPM