tagged.♥

我的大名: Xuan Er,Ayu
我的生日：18.08.1992
誰傳給你的：Abby
生日想要得到什麼禮物：i want a car
近期開心的事：get my car license
近期壓力大的是 ：SPM
未來想做什麼：model

有沒有喜歡的人:100% having
同學會要回去找老師嗎：hmm,no
跟誰出去最幸福：my honey bunny
跟情人出去最想去哪：all the places will be best
聖誕節要做啥：count down lor
最想跟誰過聖誕節：honey bunny
有幾個兄弟姐妹：confused
最喜歡的一首歌(女生的)：BIARLAH RAHSIA(siti nurhaliza)
最喜歡的一首歌(男生的)：nothings gonna change my love for you
喜歡什麼顏色：pink,white & black
上廁所會不會先沖水：ofcuz i do
愛不愛我：love who??honey bunny??ofcuz!!!
最想大聲說什麼：FUck YOU!!!!
半夜敢不敢自己上廁所：lolx..sure
上廁所會不會脫褲褲：WTF??
谁很欠打：the question above
現在很迷麼：??don;t understand
睡相很差：emm,maybe
現在的時間：22.59pm
是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人：lolx..no=.=''

體重多少：48kg
今天天气：rainy day
你懷孕了嗎：not yet
你若中樂透最想做什么：buy car
大學生一定要玩的活動：sex game(kidding lolx)
如果能為彩虹添加一種顏色你選 ：black
你相信爱情会永远吗 ：YES I DO
现在的你穿什么颜色的衣服：none..haha,white la
放棄一個人會很難嗎：SURE!!!
最近在追看什么戏：none


【點名人物】
①Fiona
②Catherine
③yetta
④yin nien
⑤ Xiao yii
⑥ Xiiao Qii
⑦Jia How
⑧boon yi
⑨Xiao Tong
⑩Yi wen





④號認識⑥號嗎?yes
⑩號是男還是女？female
①號有沒有兄弟姐妹?yes,2 sis 2 bro
⑦號姓氏? Ng
⑩號人緣好嗎?hmm,i dunno
④號有人追嗎?so many gay lou
⑥號喜歡的顏色是?how i know
③號和⑩號是朋友嗎?no
⑧號的生日是?OMG.how i noe
你怎麼認識⑩號的?at school
你跟①號的生日差幾個月?2 months
你喜歡①號聊天嗎?no,i don;t want,haha
你和⑨號有出去玩過嗎?no wor
你喜歡和③號在一起嗎?ok lor,classmate
⑩号是什么星座阿?virgin
现在①号在干吗？screaming
②号的性格？sampat2 lo

it's the hell now

just listen to me

'WHAT THE HELL'

everything is really anoyying

especially my new business+ SPM

everything is going like shit

--->

MY RESULT

kanasai!!

ENGLISH teacher says 'be harder,he has overtaken u'

ADD MATHS teacher says 'kenape merosot sean ee?'

P.A teachers say 'kenape kali nie terok?'

--->

MY BUSINESS

fuckin customer

already placed the order or even gives all the details

but suddenly missing & being ignorant everything bout it

WTF

u watch out ya

i'll list u to BLACK LIST

--->

MY IDEAL DREAMS after SPM

i want to go for a holiday with the form5 friends

but my dad is so annoying

he says

'why u want to go again those place that u hv already been?'

huh.??

what you mean about it

you mean that when we was used to go before at once

then after that we should need not to visit anymore?

is the world stop developing already??

so what??

there must be a different

or else i can tell u i would like to stop my studies

the reason is because i hv already been study for more than 10 years

--->

MY FACE

what the hell again is goin on to my face?

why must me?

why every pretty has less problem or even no problem of face skin

why me??

don't understand what the fuck is the 'sky' treating me

until when only i need not to cover

to face everyone with my bare face

--->

MY LOVE

hani,u say u wanna leave me?

leave me from here

u want to go JOHOR

is that real??

u say u hv no choice,u is been forced

really??

why don't u just have a say

just turn it down

if you love me

i hope u don't leave me far away like this

although i know that the heart is still together

but i can't accept "LONG DISTANCE OF LOVE"

i want u to stay beside me

GOD,ARE YOU BLESSING ME??

考车咯.♥

get started

今天去考车license

紧张得不得了

最后还是pass了

开心.♥

没想到考一个license要那么久

早上7点去，晚上7点回（骗你的啦，傻咩）

能驾车了.♥

明天就去载你吧

嘻.♥

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今天有个无聊人打给我

不知道是谁

最讨厌人家打来说‘要认识你可以吗？’（像懒酱）

问他是谁又在那边‘我是要认识你的人咯，你不认识的啦’（WTF，不要打来更好）

真的是有点把我气到

说什么‘我要追你，你不要跑’（幼稚到死）

我在这先声明

我已经有男朋友了

不要骚扰

不要多管闲事

我喜欢跟谁在一起是本小姐的事

不管他是什么人

只要我过得幸福，只要我喜欢就好

不用你来操心

你绝对不会比他好

kepochi-.-凸

我怎么了———

最近

落寞感很强烈

我的生活变了

我爱hani

发自于内心深处的爱他

我们的生活，我们的日子

是不是变了

是不是不一样了

其实它早就不一样了

只是我们一直很努力的维持

我已经好久没见到他了

难受

他就像我的一切，我的全部

不！

他根本就是

我不敢想象毕业后的日子

原本就很艰难的路

还会变得更艰难吗

每当想起

泪，它总是会出现

我不要泪

它让我变得更累

我们的爱

是刻苦铭心的吗

大家都渴望刻苦铭心的爱吗

如果是我

我宁愿只是平凡的恋爱

至少我不会像现在那么苦恼，那么心痛

我不要分离

我也不会和他分离

我们的爱是认真的

也许有人认为it‘s just a puppy love

but i will tell u

it’s not！！

也许有人会问

‘你知道什么是爱吗’

那你知道吗？

爱

用字体及言语就能够完完全全的诠释吗

如果真的能

那为何我会不懂

成全我们吧

我要自由

helpless me

SPM is really getting nearer & nearer

and what the fuck am i still doing right now

is relaxing..SHIT

I know i can make it

but i am too lazy NOW

i can't focus at all on my studies

because there is no classes for us

keep exam-ing

i feel tired of exam

i hate reading & memorize

damn fucking hate it

I really really don't know how to face the SPM examination

i have lost my spirit & confident

not in mood

i feel really dilemma

and i feel kinda stress/pressure is pressing me

i wonder i would be a mentally ill

PLUS

nowadays keep quarreling with my honeyy

i don't know what the fuck are we keep debating

i really hate that

this makes me feel disappointed,makes me feel down

it really upsets me

I love u honeyy..

i love u so much,i don't want all this keep running

because of honeyy i can lost all my spirit

it's true..!!!

all because i am fuckin love u!!!

GOD..pls..

pls give me a way to overcome these problems

i don't want to lost my certificate

which is really important to me(or else i should say important to my family)

i don't want stresses..!!

i don't want my honey be so hot-tempered

i don't want he works

honey i need u to beside me

to war together with me

to comfort me,to console me

to give me a shoulder

AND to LOVE me

all will be alright if u do so,honeyy

i need you honey.♥

without attendance of him

very tired for this few days

keep hanging out

but not with him

he's working

no..!!

i don't really like him to work

he has no time for me

i can't even ask him to accompany me although just to the PASAR MALAM

i miss u so much honey

i dunno what can i do,to make some times for us

u go out crack of dawn & came back at night

and then u'r tired

just ask me to give u some massages

that's all

i'm carried away

dun want to hug you when u'r fall as sleep

u have no time to talk to me,to share what have i encountered everyday

the heart is lonely

inside there

it's raining & craving for somethings

mood:loneliness

i hv updated my background songs

is a malay version

nice,enjoy it ya guys.♥

On cloud nine.♥ and then i emo=.=

hey u know what

i hv passed my pra-test by justnow only

oh yeah..♥

i really got the feeling~wuhu~♥

now only left the JPJ to settle..

god bless me please.♥

actually i was very nervous justnow.

the leg was trembling when i stepped on the break

oh my goodness..i thought that i'll fail..

lolx...god is really blessing me

GOD i love u!!.♥

mood:on cloud nine.♥

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oh ya..

the trial's result is out

worse..-.-

let's seen

BM-67 (A1)

BI -82 (A1*achieved)

BC-60 (A1)

Math-80 (A1*achieved)

add math-77 (A1)

P.A-58 (A1*the worse got)

physic-50 (B3)

chemistry-60 (A2)

moral-54 (A1)

sejarah-failed ( do no expect anything)

the bracket's shown the target of mine

And the sign* means that it has achieved

i know it's worse..

i can't focus

And i really feel kinda lazy to study

And no mood at all on studying

because my life has been controlled

SAD

my life is be bound

by my father

he lets me to get the car license just to be the driver

he says that's all my work

And

while waiting the SPM result

about 3 months

he's not allowed me to hv a change or an experience to work

i felt bored

no challenges in my life

that's why i always search something ridiculous & do something crazy

i don't want to be bound

i wish i would have a say

i wish i would have a right to

i wish i would have a position

i wish i would have my own ideals my dreams(although i have no right now)

i wish i would have my own decision & choices

I WAN FREEDOM

i wanna choose my own plot of life

i wanna choose whether what subject to be taken to pursue my studies

I wanna choose which college or university to be gone

i want handle these all by my self.!!

i'm a big big girl already ok daddy..

OMG,i wish i would not to be mentally ill cause of the stress u giving

YOU PRESSED ME!!

forgive my emo

hope u will not get mess after reading this

by your faithfully,

Miss Ayu.♥

tagged.♥(i love this tagged)

name:chinese call me Xuan Er,my classmate call me Shin Ee,malay call me Ayu,my family call me dear & my honeyy call me sayang.♥
d.o.b:18th August 1992
horoscope:Leo
height:160cm(i guess so)
weight:48kg
fav foods:fried fried,nugget of McD,Patisfrance bread(the chocolate roll),secret recipe's banana chocolate cake,rendang chicken,banana split(ice-cream),buffet of SIBARAKU,Tang Yuan with the ginger soup.♥...etc
fav drinks:sky juice(the best drink to me),carrot milk juice,dutch lady's strawberry fav milk etc
fav cartoons:chowder,我们这一家,千与千寻，魔法阿麽
fav colours:PINK.♥(buying things depend on the color effect)
fav subjects:add maths the most & english
fav stuff:all the fashion stuffs la ofcuz.♥
fav places:school's canteen haha..to me all the places will be my fav if honeyy is beside me.♥
fav t.v programs:genius go go go(damn funny)
fav movies:Tsunami & drug me to hell(the movies that i can't ever forget)
fav brand:Louise vuitton is the best(but i couldn't affort to buy 1)
fav songs:i love malay song indeed
fav stars:my honeyy is a SUPER STAR actually(tat's what he always says..haha)
any eccentric habits?:oh,everyone knows it!!..i love the smell of ketiak of my honeyy.♥
fav words:life is not a bed of roses(because my life is not a bed of roses indeed but full of ups & downs)

fav make up artist:michelle phan ofcuz..♥(check out she's make up video on YOUTUBE)
fav mascara:I have so many brands of mascara,but the most i like is MAYBELINE.♥(good job)
fav make up base:MAYBELINE
fav concealer:Za(searching for new & a better one,any suggestion?for trouble skin ok)
fav sun-block:MAYBELINE(2 in 1 with the make up base actually)
fav eye liner:SECRET,MAYBELINE
fav facial foam(current using):ASTISTRY
fav make up remover:ETUDE HOUSE
fav moisturizer/cream:ASTISTRY
fav toner,tonic:ETUDE HOUSE

fav accessories:ring & sunglasses
fav style:sexy & elegant
fav type of clothes:look elegant & my hot body shape.♥
fav type of pants:skiny long pants & legging
fav type of skirts:nice cutting & short
fav style of model or artist as reference:the popteen's model(dunno the name)

fav type of eye make up:somethings make up created long & charming eye-shaped
fav hairstyle:long straight+smooth hair(feel like very romantic)

moz happy things?:study in the class of SI of 2008 & 2009(how a memorable to me)
moz crazy things?:i did a lot of crazy things la man
moz upset things?:honeyy & family scolded me
moz excited things?:going trip with friends & honey
moz irritate things?:my family couldn't accept our love

no. of family member?:not clear(messy)
any pets?:no,i wish i can manage to get 1(I LOVE DOG)
(current.)
crave on wat things?:moneyy & freedom!!!( i want my life)
mood:nothing's special(i'm very rasional haha)
person u hate?:the step mother & daughter
person u like?:honeyy ba
person u love?:i choose honeyy(forgive my selfish)
result of exam?:okok nia
the things u regret:result of PMR

list out 5 of ur best friend's name:fiona,cathy,xiao yii,pei yii & jia hin
love them?:OFCUZ!!

(ownself.)
like urself?:love myself damn much haha
trust urself?:always
like anything about urself ?:emm...yes i do.my finger nails i guess
hate anything about urself ?:hmm,hate that sometimes i was so emotional
pround anything about urself?:YES,my insist